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Sunday, September 07, 2003*
duno juz wat is so wrong wif me...
im supposely suppose to be feelin so much happier n less stressed..
but sumhow its doesnt seem so...
i wonder why too...
we've worked evrytink out alreadi..
or at least thts wat i tink we haf...
but juz some part of me is not feelin tht way...
are tinks juz meant to be liddat...
is tht why im feeeling so 'off' nowadays?
i reali seriously dun haf a slight tinge of an idea..
all i know is tht i dun wanna tink anymore....
i wanna be able to slp...
deranged...i feel so crazily unstable...
like i read sumwhere..
being ignorant is gud...
i wanna feel innocent n unfeeling...
i tink tht way i'll be happier...
im trying so hard to slp...
slp has neva been a prob for me before...
now it is..
why?
i duno, dun wannna noe, n dun tink of knowing...
i dun wanna groan abt it again n again...
guess im not e onli one feelin tired of it...
evryone else ard me feels it too...
neva ever in my life haf a felt tht i actualli can feel so much for sumone...
neva in my life wld i even dream of wanting to kare so much for sumone...
neva in my life haf i yearned to need sumone so impt in my life...
neva did i noe tht i can actuali love someone so much...
neva will i learn tht all these neva was neva meant to be...
neva will i eva ...
neva will u eva ...
neva can we eva ...
neva is neva ...
haf u eva ...
its juz neva.
~tas
Tas_anne @ Sunday, September 07, 2003
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